#3

sometimes I wonder if this is retribution for what I've done to Charlotte. I guess I ended up becoming such a person to her, someone that doesn't care about the problems she's doing, and only cared for my own selfish desires not being fulfilled. And look now, I'm on the receiving end of it, it's laughable isn't it? Can't even imagine the magnitude of pain that Charlotte had to go through because of me repeatedly doing shit like this. I guess I really deserve whatever I got. If there's a god up there, can't you see that I'm really doing my best to be a different person? So please, stop punishing me even further, I've gone through enough.