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God dammit even in my sleep I cannot forget this annoying heartburn feeling. I dreamt of you last night, which is probably a consequence of thinking about you so much and associating you with such a strong frustrated feeling when you ignored me. Woke up feeling the same as I felt yesterday, the pain in my heart and in my head. But yet at the same time, I need to be my best for you because you don't deserve anything less than that. It's such a conflicting feeling and I guess it's only a matter of time before I come to terms with how to control these feelings. Hopefully I won't show it too much.